Friday, February 28, 2014 ♥ 5:28 PM
Trust me when I used to say how much I like my job.. (Note: Used to)
Now... I'm not very sure as my team... let's see.. my team.. I have to rephrase that.
The team which technically I should be inside.. does not have enough 'space' for me.
Ever tried having dozen of meetings without you involved but when comes to working on things.. errr.. you should help up as you are part of the team and the best part is.. you know nothing to begin with!!
If you dare to ask anyone from the meeting, you cannot help but sense the annoyed vibes they are so trying hard to hide underneath the smile.
Call me sensitive or thinking too over the line.
But, I trust my instincts! There are many times I chose to brush things off and managed to find excuses for the other party(ies) behaviors however, treating a person almost invisible and only realizing this person is around till HELP is needed... it's a little too overboard in my standard.
I have been trying to NOT be bothered by their actions/words however, it's starting to eat on me again....
When i flew overseas for the past two weeks, it was a good opportunity for everything to slowly fall to their respective places and for my mind to tune to a more positive zone.
Yet, the situation currently is far worst than the period before I went away.
The problems lie strictly on lack of communications and drawing too many lines on so many things.
Example: Yes, I'm busy with the stupid database however it doesn't mean you cannot ask me to work on something else if needed,
The "team" is only that 'big'. And when meeting is carried out without me... Messages were not passed to me to lookout for vendors but to people who are not from the team.
Seriously.. do you have a trust issue on me or do you think I am so incapable that you cannot pass on anything to me.
In such cases, either you talk to me or just tell me you wanna drop me.
It's so insulting to hear how "appreciative" you think I am in the 'team' yet I was not part of the team.
Really.. forget it.
I am so bloody tired of the happenings and whatever you guys called it.
Since you lots choose to ASSUME I am so invalid, than I shall keep my silence and continue to sit on my desk to wait for time to pass and search for somewhere else who perhaps, appreciate me better.
Oh... not forgetting... I will start wearing back the mask I took out a year ago when I thought this place is much breathable!
Thank you very much.
Monday, February 24, 2014 ♥ 10:49 PM
Finally!!!
I went to one of my dream destination(s) and I am back to the country in one piece.
Met a group of awesome + crazy people and what's new in a tour package? rotten people.
Had a terrific time traveling and already missing the places visited.
Thankfully, everything went well and hopefully, there will be more trips coming up.
As for life in office... we shall let fate takes its time to roll and do whatever it wanna do... Well... i cannot control every single thing. :)
LOVE life... completely blank (as usual) but life still has to go on.,...
May 2014 be a better year in every way and yes.. i am so sleepy that i am unable to know what i had typewritten or care more/less on the structure/grammer/english of this post...
so... tata....
