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Sunday, June 28, 2009 ♥ 5:21 PM
went to the asia museum the other day with xuan xuan...
had a nice time looking and understanding all the 'kangxi' stuffs in the special exhibition area...
after we left... we decided to venture at the other galleries coz the museum is opened till 12am, there were still tons of ppl and it's FREE!!!
however... when we entered gallery 4... thankfully there were other humans in there as well...
i had this creepy feeling that there were also 'others' with us... went all round the gallery and well... they seem to be nice spirit but still i asked xuan to move on thus no to disturb them...
we were strolling in the middle gallery (i forgot which it is... but it displayed some of the thai and others culture stuffs) and we wanna get to the chinese gallery which we din see where the entrances are despite after consulting the map several times...
i noticed that the only way to get into the chinese gallery is through the doors we were at..
as we were walking and finding the entrances.. i noticed gallery 5 and for god knows what reason.. i went into it despite it does not link to the chinese gallery....
and............. from the moment we both stepped in... both of us (YES.. xuan xuan as well) felt so uncomfortable as if we had stepped into a forbiddened place...
we were both very sure there were chantings played inside that gallery and i felt a strong pressure pushing me to one of the area...
xuan xuan told me later she was quite surprised i did not mentioned anything or wanting to leave immediatey after we went in...
the truth was.. till now.. i still canot understand why i din step out but followed the strange feeling to turn into the 'praying' area...
believe or not.. the moment i saw the place.. (there's a tiny entrance that link to the opposite side of the room)... my mind told me to walk across that area but my heart made me took 2 steps backwards...
following my heart.. i grabbed hold of xuan and left the gallery with her as normal and as fast as both our legs can carried.. when i was nearly out of the gallery.. i felt a force or a hand brush across my neck harshly... not knowing whether it was meant to be playfully or purposely.. i hope i did not offend anything inside...
till to date.. i still cannot understand what made me walk into the area instead of stepping out of the gallery...
i had encounters wither several 'others' before but that was the first time in singapore that i met such strong and powerful ones... even though the scariest one was the one i met in classic place hotel in bangkok...
maybe.. the spirits are very restless as there were so many ppl disturbing their place coz the museum seldom opened till such late hours...
well... it's one to believe there are more than living things on this planet... but never ever tried to deny there's things unexplainable by science ....
about 12 hours later... i will be starting my new position with the new company..
throughout these 4 months of staying at home .. i did some serious thinking about my life and other things...
realize a lot of things that can be prevent from happening and realize that i should start treasuring the time i have left on this earth....
no ones know what will happen the next minute of their life....
i know for sure i wanna travel to places i never been and enjoy as much of ife as possible.. BUT... back to reality... everything need $$$...
without $$$... everything is limited and out of reach....
choosing this company may not be my ideal choice but it's still a good choice compared to the others... well that may be a little early to tell but i hope it will not make me regret choosing...
thinking.. every career path i chose... there's a fren who always be there to accompany me...
from cbt to nus.. there's always someone...
this is the only time.... where i choose a full time position which there's no one i know and i have to restart the mode of knowing ppl...
regardless all the hurt and sadness that happened during those months.. i hope i will be able to endure the hardships and enjoy the fruit of success in the near future....
*cross my fingers and hope things will turn out better*
Saturday, June 13, 2009 ♥ 6:33 PM
This is a song I heard from a tv drama... It's a really lovely and sentimental song which I surprising only from recently from the net....
maybe years ago i totally dunno how to search for songs from the net (opps.. isn't that very illegal! *U din see anything* lolxxx)
I tried to find the song with MTV however... the closest I could find is this one...
enjoy and feel with the song....
oh.. my favourite part of this song is the background music.. u may have heard it in several dramas/movies....
Out of the blue... i wanna/reminded of this song and man.. it so express what i am thinking at the moment or rather what i have been feeling recently....
maybe walking/running away may not be a good idea... but believe me... sometimes... out of the situation will helps to see things clearer and yes... i no longer believes as written in the lyrics.. fairy tales...
many gals grow up hoping to be 'Cinderella' one day.. but hello... there is NO prince charming riding his damm white horse waiting at the dance for u to drop yr glass slipper and seek high and low for u... dun live in fairy land...
in reality.. guys are animals who uses their basic instincts which well.. their lower part of their body to think around 80% of the day....
so why seek love when there is no love but lust and lies which will wither away after a period of time....
Cinderella Britney Spears
I used to be your girlfriend and I know I did it well Oh yes you know its true You'd call me Cinderella All you had to do was yell And I'd be there for you
Here I am So try to forgive me I don't believe in fairy tales Here we are with nothing but honesty I've had enough I'm not gonna stay
I'm sorry for running away like this And I'm sorry I've already made my wish Oh, But Cinderellas got to go
From time to time I'd try to tell just what was on my mind. You'd tell me not today. Come back, do that. Wheres, Cinderella at... Was all you had to say
Here I am, so try to forgive me I don't believe in fairy tales here we are with nothing but honesty i've had..enough...i'm not gonna stay
I'm sorry for running away like this 'n i'm sorry i've already made my wish. Ah, but cinderella's got to go
i'm sorry just tryin' to live my life don't worry, you're gonna be alright but cinderellas got to go.
[spoken]
I used to say I want you, you cast me in your spell. I did everything you wanted me to, but now i shall.. break free from all your lies. I won't be blind you see, my love it can't be sacrificed, i won't return to thee.
[sung] I'm so sorry, i've already made up my mind
[spoken] I won't return to thee
[sung] I'm sorry to say, i'm runnin' away now... don't worry, you will be alright
i'm runnin' away, i've made up my mind now.. your gonna have to let me go
I'm sorry for runnin' away like this, and I'm sorry I've already made my wish Oh, but cinderella's got to go I'm sorry, just tryin' to live my life, don't worry, your going to be alright! but cinderella's got to go.
... DeLiCaTiOn ♥
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