Thursday, December 18, 2008 ♥ 1:09 PM
i fell that i'm standing on the edge recently... it's been so long since i've been pacing my steps on the edge...
should i or should i not jump... it's so inviting.....
i can hardly push myself to be cheerful and happy nowadays.... it's so difficult and suffocating... i may as well kill myself off immediately.....
even when i'm gone.. no one will remember me... maybe for awhile but not for long... well.. i guess my parents will since i'm their only gal... but other den that..... i will be a lost fragment piece of memory in the mind of others....
i used to believe that eveyone comes to earth for a reason.... i still believe that.. well..i want to believe that... but... i dunno anymore...
fren can decided to walk out of your life when you r no longer needed for them...
colleauge can back stab u anytime and you have to have a strong will to endure and hold on to it...
ppl u trust... forget it... why trust ppl.... trust only yourself and what u believe in.. but wat i believe in seems to be not so believeable.......
i need a break... i nedd someone to pull me from the edge...i need a shoulder.. i need to find my reason of being here....
i love my parents but i dun feel a sense of security and belonging there... i only find that peace i want in my books and that's FICTION!!! which means it's not reality....
i wish i can sleep and not wake up forever....
before i jump... at least let me know the reason of me being here.... (other den being the connection between ppl)
