Friday, December 08, 2006 ♥ 1:01 AM
in life... we have a lot of frenz... however.. how many is the truely trust-worthly, long-lasting fren???
i have a few but there's only 2 that r closest..
recently.. one of them turn out into not a great fren anymore...
i will not say it's all her fault coz it always take 2 to clap....
i had take the first step in order to rebuild our friendship, maybe she never notcie.. maybe she do not want to notice...
coz she never take any steps at all....
it's a very tiring job to maintain friendship.. especially one that was broken and mended. there's still a crack that never be able to fill in...
maybe we had took each other for granted these few years, but we had always be there when one of us was needed...
i really wanna ask her.. where was she when i last needed her???
tears is so hard to swallow sometimes... friendship bonded is so hard to break... not to mention sisterhood...
did she ever notive that she is breaking the bond between us??
maybe i am the one drifting apart.. but how many in the world know the reason???
the real reason behind it...
she is always the one that is pitiful.. i am always the one that is so evil n bad n always bully her...
juz can mention that the world is cruel to me.. was it my fault that i always end up as the bad one?? i wanna know.. the sad thing is no one can give me an answer..
everytime, no matter what happened... she is always the injuried party.. i am always the bully..
i am so sick of this.. so sick n tired of this.... so wanna end this....
sometime.. it crossed my mind...
will it be better if we never know each other...
will it be better if we really break the bond between us....
no one can tell me the answer i want to know...
only time tells...
i so want to cry sometime, wondering what had happened to our friendship.
had she ever thought i miss her??? No i dun think so.. coz she's too busy dating..... she never noticed when i was down/sick/tired..
in her eyes now.. is only him...
we used to have lunch together... almost everyday..
however, since the day he appeared back... i never talk to her again.. never have the fun to chat... never have the chance to discuss problems together...
she is so engrossed into him..
sorry to break this over here....
i do HATE this guy... n i only HATE him more n more day after day...
think of it... she is partly blame for my hatred towards him...
when will she realize that i do miss her as a fren??
i highly doubt so............... coz till now... she never notices the loneliness that was surrounding me...............
my fren.......... ever since the day u reject the call i so badly need u to answer.... my bond with u had already break... maybe u haven't notice it....
but................................................
u had hurted me enough to kill our friendship... i truely dunno how to trust and rely on u again....
