living on the land we called earth.. spending 21yrs of life on this piece of land... now.. it's time to conclude the past of my life.. and learn to NEVER look back to pound on all my regrets...

ever since the day the doctor horribly pulled me out of my mum body... i am so :hello world!

had been living like a princess for the 1st 6ys of my life, not knowing that ppl out there can be evil, cruel, heartless...

den proceed to my yrs in primary school, realize that parents, teachers, schools are typically very KIASU...

in my yrs in secondary school, learnt that i am not as clever as i think and i can also be as bad as i wanna be....

suprisingly, i went into poly.... live each day slowly, never think of wat will happen on the next day, and no doubt, still saw fights among ppl for results, prizes, competitions...

went into real world... saw a lot of back stabbers, idiotic bosses, irritating humans...

in different of stage of my life i met differnt pl who taught me countless og things regardless good or bad....

my love life is never smooth....

my 1st love is in primary school.. that, to be frank, is juz puppy love... i was cruely regretted...
on and on in my life, i met guys who never ended up with me... silencely i swore that if i still dun meet any b4 21yrs old.. i will become a nun...

out of the blue... when i was 19 yrs old, i met him, the guy who i, gurantee, will never notice or take a second glance...

however, we were never smooth either... things turned out so rocky that we broke up in the end.... i tried all my might to forgive what he did, what he told me, but, whenever ppl mentioned him, when i saw his pic, the anger in me juz rose up.....

in life, we have to learn to be forgiving and only remember the goods of others... but how many can do it???

i am not a sane... i cannot and unable to do it...

till now... there are no spice in my life..

everyday is juz work and home...

life is so boring...

there was one saying that we will meet our destined one when the time is ripe... by then, your life will be so fulfiled....

however, can anyonce explain why is there so many lone soul in the world?
izzit because they missed that particular destined one?

i often asked myself a lots of "why"

i love to dream, wonder, think...

questioning yrself n finding the answers in the end is the best way to kill all the "why"..

when will my life really be fulfiled? i so wonder now.................

luv... a universe thing....

but wat is love actually ???

when 2 person fall so deeply in love till they cannot live without each other.. they happily got married... however ten yrs down the road... thr guy had a mistress and the gal is filing for divorce..

so.... wat happened in between?

or.... 2 person so love each other till got married, and 3 or 4 yrs or even 1 - 2 yrs... file for divorce coz they feel that their character clash...


explain wat happened!!!

is it bcoz love is blind?

i really wonder....

oh!!!! recently.. i am so hook to "Trinity Blood"..

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highly recommended!!!!!!

MUZ SEE!!!!!

in life... we have a lot of frenz... however.. how many is the truely trust-worthly, long-lasting fren???

i have a few but there's only 2 that r closest..

recently.. one of them turn out into not a great fren anymore...

i will not say it's all her fault coz it always take 2 to clap....

i had take the first step in order to rebuild our friendship, maybe she never notcie.. maybe she do not want to notice...
coz she never take any steps at all....

it's a very tiring job to maintain friendship.. especially one that was broken and mended. there's still a crack that never be able to fill in...


maybe we had took each other for granted these few years, but we had always be there when one of us was needed...

i really wanna ask her.. where was she when i last needed her???

tears is so hard to swallow sometimes... friendship bonded is so hard to break... not to mention sisterhood...

did she ever notive that she is breaking the bond between us??

maybe i am the one drifting apart.. but how many in the world know the reason???

the real reason behind it...

she is always the one that is pitiful.. i am always the one that is so evil n bad n always bully her...

juz can mention that the world is cruel to me.. was it my fault that i always end up as the bad one?? i wanna know.. the sad thing is no one can give me an answer..

everytime, no matter what happened... she is always the injuried party.. i am always the bully..

i am so sick of this.. so sick n tired of this.... so wanna end this....

sometime.. it crossed my mind...
will it be better if we never know each other...

will it be better if we really break the bond between us....

no one can tell me the answer i want to know...

only time tells...

i so want to cry sometime, wondering what had happened to our friendship.
had she ever thought i miss her??? No i dun think so.. coz she's too busy dating..... she never noticed when i was down/sick/tired..

in her eyes now.. is only him...

we used to have lunch together... almost everyday..

however, since the day he appeared back... i never talk to her again.. never have the fun to chat... never have the chance to discuss problems together...

she is so engrossed into him..

sorry to break this over here....

i do HATE this guy... n i only HATE him more n more day after day...

think of it... she is partly blame for my hatred towards him...

when will she realize that i do miss her as a fren??

i highly doubt so............... coz till now... she never notices the loneliness that was surrounding me...............

my fren.......... ever since the day u reject the call i so badly need u to answer.... my bond with u had already break... maybe u haven't notice it....

but................................................

u had hurted me enough to kill our friendship... i truely dunno how to trust and rely on u again....

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